Tag: Loss
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November 9, 2022
Yesterday, the company I work for sent an email about donations for their Holiday Giving Drive through pledges. During lunch, one of the executives conducted a hard sell to get those pledges from employees going to and from lunch. For one hour and fifteen minutes, I stayed hidden at my desk, waiting to use the…
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October 25, 2022
We’ve entered Scorpio season. The office was a little empty, yesterday. I think some of the ones out were sick. My daughter left work early for the same reason. Last night, Jaxx kept barking in the living room. When I went to check on him I found him barking at the container with Sammy’s ashes.…
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Hordes of Havoc
My life traverses a weary circle; a hollow atmosphere pollutes the seasons. Experience has lost its meaning. My famished darkness, tempted by the bloated hordes of havoc. Provoking this quiet wrath. Everything is uncertain. My days end writing my acquaintance, Death, a letter; the pages heft with regret
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October 4, 2022
Life is not a dream. It’s become evident that I’m on the same path as my late father. The journey is eerily similar; marital struggles, broken relationships with our kids, working forever with no retirement savings. In 2021, he died from Stage-4 colon cancer at 76. I’d be surprised if I lived past 60. I…
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September 21, 2022
Yesterday, I saw a dead bird along my walk during lunch. I was triggered momentarily. Death has been a constant presence in my life lately. By the way, “do you remember the 21st day of September? “September” by Earth, Wind, and Fire. Happy Hump Day.
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September 8, 2022
Jaxx is adjusting well. He makes me smile. This week I’ve been assigned to work on process improvement initiatives. I’m unsure how I feel about it because of my recent experience. The weather was amicable despite the excessive heat. I took more walks than usual. I learned that Comedian David A. Arnold died of natural…
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August 31, 2022
It’s been 45-days since leaving my last job for this one and 30-days since my start date. Nothing has changed. I have to ride this out for a while. This week, my father-in-law had his second hip replacement surgery, and we are seeing the further progression of my mother-in-law’s Alzheimer’s disease. I hate to admit…
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August 27, 2022
It’s been a week since Sammy’s death. We put away his things and picked up his remains. It is strange not having him around. Sometimes the universe unexpectedly fills the void with a loving presence; his name is Jaxx.
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August 25, 2022
It’s been a tough few days since Sunday riding the emotional ups and downs. The vibe at work is also off; people are going about their day, but there is this feeling of struggle. There’s a growing desire within me to run from the norm and create a new one so, I’m making plans for…
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August 22, 2022
It is weird not having Sammy around, especially this morning as we had our daily routine. The events of my life over the past eighteen months have shown that I need to stop living by the standards of others. Death will show up without an appointment.
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January 31, 2022
I am finally feeling better. Word on the street is that another variant of Omicron is in circulation. Double-masked for a while. The new normal. Yesterday, I received a package from Brian; it was a set of legal documents for him to have administrative rights over my late father’s estate. An inciteful reminder of the…
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1965
November 27, 2021. Exactly fifty six years ago to the day, my parents forged a union. Tied by a secret circumstance. Our lives shaken by revelations in the wake of my father’s death. Everything we knew was covered in blood. Every excuse and obsession was in Jesus’ name. Our house divided, it was never meant…
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Storm
Another storm is coming. Feeling the barometric pressure. Waiting for the strong winds, to begin parting our ways.
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