This time of the year is tough for me. My past still haunts me. The morning started with a confrontation, which set the tone for the rest of the day. I wish my days were easier to deal with as I get older. I spoke with my brother Friday night. During our conversation, he asked … Continue reading October 23, 2022
It’s Been A While
It’s been a while since I've felt the sun. Daily precipitation grows more intense. Finding my sense of direction, moving away from the storm yet, tethered to the chaotic attraction. Thunder without the touch of lightning. All I have is the rain.
September 13, 2022
Monday felt weird. I didn’t hear from my boss, and she canceled my 1:1 without warning, which was odd. A co-worker is distancing herself from a project I was pulled into. I’m out of the loop on projects that I am tracking. I don't understand what is happening. The same situation is occurring here that … Continue reading September 13, 2022
September 12, 2022
It's raining. Last night I dreamed I was meeting with my family and blood relatives. I had to escort them out of the building to a new location. Some of them didn't make it. This morning I took Jaxx outside for his morning relief. After he finished, we started to run inside, but he suddenly … Continue reading September 12, 2022
August 21, 2022
April 13, 2022
Yesterday, I had an interview due to happenstance. I have a couple of panel interviews this week, so we will see what happens. Things may once again come full circle. I had my first one-on-one with the new Vice President of Global Customer Success. He was apologetical 20-minutes late. We discussed his observations during his … Continue reading April 13, 2022
January 25, 2022
I'm feeling burnt out and discouraged with my job. The CEO’s visit in December 2021 made a lasting impression on me and not in a good way. I don't know what to do as I don't want to stay, but I don't want to keep repeating this mistake. I dreamed that a product developer suddenly … Continue reading January 25, 2022
A sudden fracture within the norm gave way to an unexpected tragedy. A single infection shut down the world. Despite the unprecedented events, we sought peace and equality. Our reality is now planted in a virtual world. A King showed us the meaning of strength and commitment; a loss we cannot recover. Politicians forsaking the … Continue reading 2020
I continue to have these dreams. I am wandering in an office building; sometimes, I am looking for a meeting or a conference room, or searching for my desk. There are familiar faces in these dreams that I am either happy to see or trying to avoid. There was a point during one of those … Continue reading Lost Inside
It has been a year since the events that led to my demise. The logical decisions resulting in emotional decay. Starting over to find a solution. An education of sorts. So many mistakes along the way. I wonder whether I will ever learn the lesson; I doubt that I will even recognize it. So much … Continue reading Runaway
Waking to a dimly lit sunrise Smiling at the hope of promise Day darkens quickly Shadows pummel a shaken spirit Seeking salvation in the darkness Falling towards despair Lying within the foggy evening Wishing for a moment of sleep Unable to breathe
It was a simple assignment. I wasn't supposed to stay very long. They said the chaos and frustrations were only temporary. A maddening predicament. They took my trust. In the dead of night. I was left behind. Lost on this deserted terrain.
We saw your silhouette on the foggy horizon. You were lost, broken, and seeking acceptance. An emptiness filled by the opening of a kind domain. You were given a safe haven. However, points of view quickly became distorted. You decided to etch your unexpected displeasure on every surface. This beautiful place disgraced by the subtle … Continue reading Broken Foundation.
This chapter is reaching an end. A story of the lost protagonist unable to find his way home. Subplots of despicable deeds. Brief victories within unexpected conflicts. The moments of imperfections that kept him tempered with humility. His pending resolve will be glorious. A denouement for the ages.
Snowflakes start their fall; Barely seen. Crashes on the terrain; Never heard. Touches on the skin; We remember.
I'm losing traction. Moments are passing by me. Changing direction.
Days spent wasting time looking for green grass on the other side. Instead finding lies because there’s no grass at all. I close my eyes Becoming invisible to the world exploring imaginations inside my naïve mind. To dream amazing things. To live astonishing ways. To be extraordinary. Lost among the marvels; experiencing the childlike wonderment … Continue reading Lost Marvels
Once upon a time, I considered selling my soul for happiness. Then I realized that it happened, unconsciously, when I listened to the opinions of others and lived my life for them. I lost myself in the wild. Where am I going? My days spent wandering while helping others find their way. The lights on … Continue reading Broken Compass
Something to Leave Behind
I started this YouTube channel a year ago with the intent of it being a hobby that allowed me to connect with people. Despite the courses in marketing, personal branding, and content creation, the channel lacks….interest. Maybe one day, I will figure out it's purpose and finally leave something worthwhile behind. https://youtu.be/i8306SHgr2s
I often wonder about my life; the struggles that persist on every path. Every effort to avoid the drama leads to bad things. There is the constant fork in the road; signs of trouble hidden in the thickets. The ambiguity and confusion; the daydreams and the despair. I think about my decisions; the choices that … Continue reading Confusion
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