What have I gotten myself into? A constant state of survival. Decisions have consequences; mine has no regrets despite the challenging conditions. Nothing has gone according to plan.

I started a new gig this week, and I thought I had an idea of what I’d be doing based on the interview, but clearly I misunderstood everything. This work environment is not what I expected based on the job description.

Physical demands and time in constant motion consumes most of my energy. Training they provided is a show and tell confetti of information tossed in my face. My new boss got me in trouble with the site superintendant due to his stubborness and my ignorance. I did not realize that I would be working for a client that contributed to my mental health issues at my previous job at half the pay.

Whatever door I opened that brought me to this dimension, I need to find it and go back.