Tag: Writing

March 28, 2024

Connecting with people.

Yesterday, I was mentally overwhelmed with the amount of work and action items evolving with this new project assigned to me. I have six meetings today. There is so much visibility on me from thirteen lines of business, a lot of financial-related knowledge needed that I despise, and the expectation for me to keep it all organized and moving quickly.

Our managing director keeps saying, “You do good work; you get more work.” The statement evokes resentment and the need to flub assignments to prevent that from happening.

I’ve traveled the career-oriented path, which is not for me, but I keep connecting with people who want me to think it is. Once, I worked for someone who understood that not everyone wants that in their job, and he didn’t push me into situations like that. I miss working for him. Anyway, Happy Thursday.

March 21, 2024

Ridiculously tired.

I woke up this morning feeling ridiculously tired.

I’m losing my hair above the left side of my brain. I learned that the brain’s left hemisphere controls speech, comprehension, arithmetic, and writing. Given my line of work, these areas are what I use most and cause the most stress. I’m not sure whether that is a fun fact, but it is time I accept this tragic loss.

I was thinking about the interview I had last week and how the hiring manager questioned my “short” time spent at various companies. I told her that those were due to the pandemic and contract work. She told me she was looking for people who wanted to work there, which was ironic given that she had just started working at that company two months ago after leaving her last company to follow her boss.

I received some excellent news yesterday. Happy Thursday.

March 4, 2024

Gusty aftermath.

It was a gusty weekend.

TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTLdL5ykX/

I had a lot of dust to wipe off my car this morning.

Our managing director informed me late Friday afternoon that he had assigned me to a high-profile project. Now, I have four significant things to manage with many executive eyes on them.

Another turning point in my introverted life.

Happy Monday.

February 29, 2024

Wishing for retirement

Artificial Intelligence (AI).

The CEO of NVidia advises that people should stop learning how to write code due to the emergence of AI, which is a testament to the rapid decline of jobs in the Technology business sector. Meanwhile, somebody scammed a family for a Willy Wonka Experience because of AI.

My job continues having me learn to write code and automate Google Forms; they hired me as a project manager, yet I have been doing very little project management for the past eighteen months. I wish I could retire.

Virgil (Mike Jones) died at 61.

Richard Lewis died at 76.

I went to the CVS Pharmacy for sinus and cold medicine yesterday. I showed my ID to the woman behind the counter. She reviewed it for several seconds, and as she handed it back to me, she said, “Wow, you look better than my dad.” I wasn’t sure whether to appreciate the compliment or be sympathetic to her father. 

Happy Thursday.

January 31, 2024

Logged my hours.

Another weird dream last night. I was at work, working through an issue. I logged my hours and left the building with another employee. We arrived on the roof of a building above a store. We went inside. A person was pushing a bin with stuff in it, and sales associates followed it excitedly while complimenting each other’s outfits. While inside, I ran into an old supervisor. On my way out, I spoke with the owner; I told him I blocked three and a half hours to work on the issue, not realizing I needed a whole day. Then I realized I hadn’t logged my hours but couldn’t return to the office. The employee who came with me was in the same situation; she couldn’t ask her friend for help.

I have to perform a demo with the managing director today; he booked it in a conference room that doesn’t have a computer; this should be interesting.

January 26, 2024

Lyrics to the song.

Some people will take advantage of you no matter what you say, no matter what you do. They respond with subtle hatred and deceptive reactions when called out for their actions. Whether I do right or wrong, the outcome is the same: repetitive lyrics to the song.

January 22, 2024

Heavy rain.

Monday morning, heavy rain.  

I had a weird dream last night: 
I was at work; I grabbed a Gatorade from the refrigerator instead of the bottled water I placed there; the Gatorade was half empty and probably not mine. I went to my car in the parking lot and moved it to a different spot. Someone parked their truck beside my car, slanted at a weird angle. I moved my car to another place and realized it was “assigned” to someone. My car would not start, and the computer indicated a defective “dev-card” in the fuse box. I pushed my car into the street and could not find that dev-card. My managing director drove past me. I pushed my car, which somehow became a pickup truck, down the street to a spot with “No Parking” signs. I could not make it any further.

X (Twitter) flagged my post with a sensitive content warning. The flag assignment confused me, and I submitted an appeal.

I have a lot to do at work this week and feel stressed. I resolved the issue with my tax software last night. Hopefully, the week will be better than expected.

Happy Monday.

January 6, 2024

It’s time for a reset. 

Based on the events at work yesterday, a continuation of the saga moving into 18 months, I am becoming desperate to retire or die trying. The immediate need is to leave my current employer because I feel like I am becoming a horrible person who will burn every bridge to make a point of how much I hate working there. The US economy added 216,000 jobs in December 2023. An economist predicts that Artificial Intelligence (AI) will eliminate highly skilled jobs. Tech companies are already removing positions for AI replacements; this is a scary premise with critical implications for our workforce.

David Soul died. Christian Oliver died in a plane crash along with his two young daughters.

There’s much buzz about Marvel potentially replacing Jonathan Majors as Kang the Conqueror. Nigel Lythgo exits “So You Think You Can Dance” amid sexual assault allegations. The entertainment industry is getting exposed and going through much-needed changes.  

It’s time for a reset.  Happy Saturday.

December 12, 2023

Maybe it’s a Freudian thing.

The work vibe was grey and heavy yesterday. For dinner, I had an “Impossible Burger’ for the first time; my daughter made it, and it was delicious. I think I paid a bill twice, which has me stressed. Someone contacted me about franchise opportunities; it must be recruiting season.

Last night, I had this dream that I was in an office lounge speaking with a woman about her employees not achieving their performance metrics; she reminded me of someone I used to work for. Maybe it’s a Freudian thing.

Happy Tuesday.

December 11, 2023

I watched “Standup” last night and had a few laughs. I sent out my orders for Christmas gifts this weekend. Mercury moves into retrograde this week; more chaos and confusion are likely over the next three weeks. I have been working on changes to my professional life and I hope things start falling into place. Happy Monday.

December 10, 2023

I won’t feel embarrassed this week.

Yesterday, I watched the movie, “Leave the World Behind,” starring Julia Roberts, Mahershala Ali, and Ethan Hawke. It is based on the novel of the same title by Rumaan Alam. I enjoyed the film, and I am considering buying the book.

The Washington Commanders have a bye week today, so I won’t feel embarrassed this week. Happy Sunday.

December 6, 2023

I feel fine.

Last night, I felt a wave of heat and pain in my back; my arms became tingly and numb. I went to bed early. It was difficult to fall asleep as my body started shivering. I woke up soaking wet due to sweating through my clothes. I feel fine this morning; we’ll see what the day brings.

December 4, 2023

A binge-worthy series.

I started watching a show on Max called “Bookie” starring Sebastian Maniscalco. After two episodes, I find it to be a binge-worthy series.

I have a busy day today and many meetings, and I’m not looking forward to any of it. I’m hoping for positive things; Happy Monday.

December 2, 2023

A tough one.

It’s been a memorable week in the news: notable deaths, hostilities & war, more political upheaval, and an earthquake in the Philippines. A close friend of the family battling cancer has taken a turn for the worse. The decade continues to be a tough one.

June 1, 2023

Three more days, but I might be out of time.

I got up at 2:00 a.m. this morning because I couldn’t sleep. It’s beginning to feel like summer, the slow creep of incremental heat.

I read an article about Al Pacino and his girlfriend having a baby. I did not know Al was 83 years old.

Three more days, but I might be out of time.

Happy Thursday.

May 17, 2023

“Nice progress.”

Yesterday, while walking to a grocery store for lunch, someone asked, “How’re you doing, black man?” I turned and said, I’m good; how are you?”. He told me he was homeless and asked me to pray for him. I told him I would and continued to the store. On my way back, I gave him a bag that contained a giant breakfast burrito and water. I asked for his name. We introduced ourselves. I told him I would still say a prayer for him.

Our Managing Director walked to my desk and asked how my project (the one he assigned me) was going. I focused my gaze on the emptiness of my happy place and rattled off a barrage of updates. He replied, “Nice progress.”

I received my attorney’s consultation on my debt collection lawsuit. I received three options and some insight into likely outcomes. I will follow through on the first option this week.

Happy Hump Day.

May 16, 2023

It was my favorite.

I learned an unknown person attempted to enter the premises where I work unauthorized, forcing a sitewide lockdown while I was traveling last week. Before the incident, we received a customer threat. I don’t know if the two situations were related.

I think I left my belt in the hotel – it was my favorite.

Happy Tuesday.

May 14, 2023

Some moments nearly broke me.

It’s Mother’s Day.

It was Mother’s Day 2018 that signified the beginning of the end of my relationship with my mother. The lies and manipulation; she’s done horrific things, and she is never wrong.

I watched “Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3” yesterday. The story is about Rocket Raccoon, forced to return to his past to save his life. The film did a great job balancing each character’s screen time. Some moments nearly broke me. It was an emotional journey with a satisfying conclusion.

Happy Mother’s Day.