Tag: Contemplation

February 9, 2024

Disengage.

I am waiting for that early Spring that our groundhog friend Punxsutawney Phil predicted, although I learned that the accuracy rate of his predictions is 39%.

People, more specifically WWE fans, are in a frenzy with the events happening around Wrestlemania to the point that I can’t have civil conversations with some of them anymore. So, I’m disengaging until their fever breaks.

I look forward to the day when the workplace stops feeling like a college campus. That’ll probably happen after I retire.

Happy Friday.

November 30, 2023

It was a little scary.

Yesterday afternoon, I was walking back to the office using the crosswalk when a white car drove through their red light, nearly hitting me. A driver two lanes over from the incident said, “That was a crazy moment, and you were so calm.”

After thinking about that moment, it was a little scary.

March 3, 2023

What is going on with my subconscious?

I’m having weird dreams again and they feel real. What is going on in my subconscious?

I watched The Mandalorian Season 3 Episode and Picard Season 3 Episode 3. Both episodes get 4 out of 5 “stars” from me.

The plague cycling through my household has reached my daughter. She now refers to me as “patient zero.”

Have a great weekend.

January 20, 2023

We have a break from the stormy weather.

We have a break from the stormy weather.

I went to the optometrist the other day for a routine eye examination. No significant changes since my last visit two years ago.

Ironically, it’s been two years since my mother and I have communicated with each other.

There’s no change in what I see here either.

December 31, 2022

This too shall pass.

New Year’s Eve.

I would describe 2022 as the “Year of Despair.” A constant struggle with employers, finances, and relatives. There were several unexpected events from my son cutting us off again, the death of Sammy, a YouTube video that went viral, and the arrival of Jaxx.

We Miss You Sammy

We did what we could during those tough times and emotional challenges. The horizon of 2023 has inclement weather, and we know how to prepare for the storm.

In all things, this too shall pass.

Happy New Year.

December 3, 2022

Here’s to the weekend.

Here’s to the weekend.

I’m feeling a little beaten this week; the long hours and shorter days might have something to do with it.

Jaxx is feeling better and has the zoomies.

I watched the Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3 trailer. It is James Gunn’s last film with Marvel Studios.

It’s been four months working at the new company. I’ve realized that I’m a writer and artist pretending to be a corporate employee. One identity makes me happy the other puts food on the table.

There’s a cosplay expo in town next weekend; maybe I’ll go.

Have a great weekend.

November 14, 2022

Another weekend evaporated.

Saturday, I watched Jo Koy and David A. Arnold on Netflix. I caught Dave Chappelle’s monologue on Saturday Night Live (SNL).

Yesterday, I watched “Wakanda Forever.”. I thought it was good and I will probably go see it again.

Review: Wakanda Forever

This morning, I left for work very early to drop my daughter off at her job. There were a few disruptions to my morning routine; the day feels off.

Happy Monday.

November 9, 2022

Yesterday, the company I work for sent an email about donations for their Holiday Giving Drive through pledges. During lunch, one of the executives conducted a hard sell to get those pledges from employees going to and from lunch. For one hour and fifteen minutes, I stayed hidden at my desk, waiting to use the bathroom.

Every day for the last three weeks, I have been listening to the new guy struggle with his training. Either his trainer is terrible at delivery, or the new guy is not a good fit. Either way, I want a new desk.

Today is my father’s birthday. He would have been 78 years old.

November 3, 2022

The morning drive to work is indicative of the vibe this week. I am having a hard time mentally dealing with things.

My job isn’t getting better, and the ad-hoc assignments that have nothing to do with my role are triggering negative memories and feelings from my previous job. I completed my 90-day probation; it was the longest 3-months of the year.

There are several things due for repairs both home and autos; a financial challenge for the most part.

Reading the comments from a video I posted a week ago. Some things should go without saying.

My in-laws seem to be doing well, all things considered. No unplanned trips to the hospital are a win in my book.

Have a great day.

October 27, 2022

My mother-in-law was admitted to the hospital last night for observation. She fell earlier in the day, and the reason for the fall was heart-related. This morning, I learned that her condition is improving.

On my drive to work, I missed my freeway exchange; I think I was daydreaming. This has happened before and I should probably keep an eye on it.

Last night, I watched “Gabriel Iglesias – Stadium Fluffy” on Netflix. I needed the laugh.

October 18, 2022

Yesterday, low-key stress caused some anxiety due to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. This morning, all of my routes to work were either closed or reduced lanes due to road work.

I felt claustrophobic.

Moments are happening like eggs hitting a wall.

I’m having second thoughts about “Van Life” as far as being my way of life. The amount of driving and my physical limitations could create problems in the long term.

I missed Comic Con Early Registration, last Saturday. That’s probably for the best.

October 17, 2022

Another weekend vanished.

Friday night I did a reaction video involving Bray Wyatt’s promo. Someone accused me of laughing but I wasn’t laughing because the promo wasn’t what I expected. I don’t think the person watched the video.

I spent time drawing and sketching over the weekend. I had a lot on my mind and haven’t been sleeping well.

Seven years ago today we lost Peppers. I think about him often.

It feels like “one of those days.” Happy Monday.

September 7, 2022

Two weeks away from the Autumnal Equinox, the first day of Autumn. Everything starts to age and whither. I’m ready for the year to end; maybe one year, I’ll stop saying that.

I’m putting my “future” plans on hold for the moment. I am starting to downsize and get rid of things with no value. My cryptocurrency is worth less than my savings account, which is disappointing.

Jaxx is having the cone removed tomorrow. Maybe he’ll see things differently.

September 2022

August 31, 2022

It’s been 45-days since leaving my last job for this one and 30-days since my start date. Nothing has changed. I have to ride this out for a while.

This week, my father-in-law had his second hip replacement surgery, and we are seeing the further progression of my mother-in-law’s Alzheimer’s disease.

I hate to admit it – I’m in pain. The pain in my shoulder and arm has spread to my neck and chest. Maybe it was the way I slept.

I don’t want to grow old.

August 22, 2022

It is weird not having Sammy around, especially this morning as we had our daily routine.

The events of my life over the past eighteen months have shown that I need to stop living by the standards of others.

Death will show up without an appointment.